"Tears, Idle Tears"

I haven’t cried in some time. It’s been awhile yeah. I do know that it is good to shed some tears on occasions; however, my despair and sad feelings even wallowing in my own crapulence are pressed neatly down. Locked somewhere I guess. I am no my mom you see. She’s an ultimate drama queen. Even while watching some Malay drama once in a blue moon, just take a peek at her, and you could see tears running down her cheeks. Sob sob she goes. lol

Thing is, I know intellectually that it is not a sign of weakness if one cries. It’s just that sometimes I face intricate times bringing the tears forth.

It may be something during the course of the day, a really heart breaking scene from some award winning movie on tv or the beauty of a sunset (reminds me of that Bedazzled’s scene, remember the guy with over-sensitive issue?), that some how grounds me and tears burst forth. That seldom happens though.

Nevertheless, after midnight the day before, I shed some tears, over a Korean movie. There, I said it.

Candidly speaking, I have forgotten the overpowering, melodramatic elements of Korean movies/drama series since Winter Sonata.

But gees, this movie acted by the same woman in Winter Sonata (even tho I love the series, I couldn’t care less about their names. It will always be Jun Sang and Yoo Jin stuck somewhere in my brain). She’s good. I mean of course she’s good; she made me cried for heaven sake! Which is rare.

It’s a mawkish romance that begins with a looming tragedy, but as the flick unfolded, I could sense yet another ghastly tragedy. It was rather predictable really for I am sorta a desensitized moviegoer to appreciate some love story movies or sympathize with the characters. Only about 7 minutes before the movie ended, BAAM! she worked her magic on screen.

And believe me, after all the wiping and staring into the thin air out of nothing, I felt sheepishly girly. Like a silly sappy teenage girl. Who floundered in self-despair and negativity over lost love.

Yikes!

p/s: "Tears, Idle Tears" is the title of one of Alfred, Lord Tennyson's many famous poems, which is inspiring.